Change

Monday's routine doctor's appointment became not so routine anymore. The great news we have been receiving every week has stopped coming (for this week at least), but there is still worse news that we could receive so we are still doing fine....just adjusting to some new changes. We now can see that my body has weakened more drastically than we thought it was capable of in one week, but the good news is that our little boy is still right where he is supposed to be. We have no way of knowing what next week's appointment will bring...whether my body will hold for a while longer or just continue weakening, but I sure wish with all my heart that I had some control over the situation!

I keep thinking what an incredible blessing it is to have control over all my other body parts....if I want to walk, I take a step. If I want to grab something, I reach out for it. If I want a hug, I wrap my arms around someone. If I want to dance, I shake my booty (maybe not with much control, but I can still do it). :) Shouldn't it make sense that if we want to bring another child into our family I should just be able to keep the baby in my womb? Well, some of us were given body parts that just don't work and we don't have control over it. It is extremely frustrating, but there are many in a worse situation than myself in that regard. What can we do in that kind of situation? Thank the Lord for what we CAN do and what we DO have and then do our best with the rest....right?

Well, the change that has come since Monday's appointment, sparing you from all the physical details, is that now I am on a modified bed rest. It's taking me a few days to get readjusted to the new schedule and lifestyle because it's not really in my nature to just sit around with my feet up and eat bon bons all day....wait. who are we kidding. But since there is no cure and we've done the treatment we can with the surgery the only other thing to do right now is try to relieve the pressure and weight from my body and wait and see if it will help. No matter what does happen or what news we may receive, we know without any doubts that the Lord is watching over our little family. May He continue to watch over yours!