I know when a child’s birthday rolls around every Mother seems to feel a little sad at how quickly their baby turned into not so much a baby anymore. I’ve been feeling that way but with a lot of extra baggage attached which has made the last few weeks leading up to our “Thanksgiving baby’s” birthday especially hard.
I wanted this first year to last forever and it didn’t.
I don’t want my baby to grow up
I wanted to have a newborn in my home for as long as possible – knowing he was probably my last ‘homegrown’ babe
I want the choice as to whether I’m done having children or not..but I feel my choice has been stripped from me
The grief of these losses have been lingering over my head
What’s most important is that the beautiful souls given to me have been worth it all…they help me to see through the hard times -
Can you believe this baby…
and this baby…
I'm so grateful for a chance to celebrate my miracle boys on their Birthdays...and everyday.
and who knows what the future holds?